New Moon

Just when i thought I was the only one (between the two of us) who was addicted to the Twilight saga, look who's reading New Moon....

If you know my husband then you'd probably know he does not like reading books. It puts him to sleep in minutes. But I was surprised when he grabbed my copy of New Moon and started reading beside me (Someone should've taken a picture of us beacause I was reading Breaking Dawn for the nth time hahaha!). Mind you, he didn't fall asleep. He even reluctantly put the book aside after reading several chapters because he has to work early later.

Holidays and Goals

How's your holiday so far? Mine was busy...busy but FUN!! I had the chance to spend time with the husband and my family. Now I am having some me time but my mind just can't stop working. I am organizing my myriad of thoughts and believe me it is no easy task. There are just so many things I want to do! I have always struggled with indecision. I always have a hard time pinpointing what it is I truly want. And for 2009, instead of thinking about resolutions that I wouldn't be able to keep anyway, I decided I'd rather list down my goals for 2009.

So, since I am still organizing those goals (and thanks to Aggie, I am now creating lists! haha!), I will leave you with some photos. Nah, not holiday photos. These are from a wedding we attended in Daet, Camarines Norte last December 8. Jojo and Freida's wedding. We had tons of fun there and thanks to Jojo and Freida, hubby and I had the chance to hold our rebels again to do some back up shots. These are a few of our favorites. We're not done editing most of them hehe. Hope you'll like 'em:

I Wish You Well

It's funny how people assume they know you inside out when they've only been with you for a year or two. Maybe they get to know your personality, your habits, but to know you, as in know you? That's a different story.

It just irks me that you claim to know me completely. Yes, I am a very open person, too trusting even. Yes, I tell you stories about my life but you were not there when those happened so that does not give you the right to claim that you truly know me. You don't know my past. You don't know why and how I became the person that I am today. You don't know the struggles I overcame to bring me to where I am; to give me the kind of strength that I have now to survive the challenges life throws my way. You don't know the victories and goals I accomplished that have given me the amount of humility that I have. You don't know my family, the challenges we've been through together and the joy we shared. You don't know my other friends - real friends who I can confidently say know me through and through. Precious people who would fight for me to death. Friends who would stand up for me and believe in who I am no matter what others may say.

You acted out of your assumptions and while I also tend to assume and form theories of my own, unlike you, I don't act on them because assumptions are just guesses and 90% of the time they're incorrect. I've learned that lesson a long time ago. You however, have not. The things you told people about me only confirmed that you don't know squat about me.

But that's okay. Thank you for showing me your true colors. Thank you for letting me see the kind of person that you are and the things you are capable of doing to ruin other people when you don't get your way. I should have heeded my instincts. I just chose not to because I chose to have faith in the good of people. I guess I still do, I just need to carefully choose who to believe in...who to trust. I will charge this to experience and learn.

So, I hope you're happy you were able to turn everyone against me - including the one friend that meant the most to me. But just to let you know, "what goes around, comes around". No, that's not a threat. I am merely stating fact and apart from ranting here, I am not going to do anything else. It's just going to waste my precious time - time I need to spend with true people - true friends. I just pray that you are spared from the consequences of what you did. But, then again, that's not for me to decide, so, I wish you well. Don't expect to see me sad too! I will not give you that satisfaction. From this point on, if you are under the delusion that I am affected; that I care...well, think again, b*a**h! I couldn't care less what you do with your life. I just hope that you learn to build up people instead of tearing them down.

Oh, and by the way, can you cut the crap and stop acting all nice and friendly? Stop asking me to go places with you because I won't. Not after this. Let's be civil and polite but let's not push it, okay? Maybe someday, but not now.

"Still bruised, still walk on eggshells, same frightened child hiding to protect myself. I can't believe I needed to protect myself from you but you can't manipulate me like before." - I Wish You Well, Mariah Carey

A Ray of Sunshine

Today I am inspired. In the midst of my cloudy state, a ray of sun shone through. The below qoute by Marianne Williamson was that ray of sunshine. Hope this brightens your day as well!

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God; your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us;it's in everyone. And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.