Going back to an earlier post where the husband said he wanted to have a baby. I am trying to stop myself from hoping again. But really, can you stop it?
It's really painful when you want something so bad and get frustrated each and every time you hope for it. Waiting for my baby miracle is never an easy thing. I couldn't count how many times I cried and felt so bad that I am starting to not care about it anymore. The hoping every month and the frustration when you see one line on the test. I am honestly tired. I want to stop. I want to feel like i don't want a baby, but I know, deep down inside I do. I make myself believe that I don't but I do.
I just know it would take a miracle, and even if every part of my being wants to stop hoping, I can't help but do. Simply because, hope all I have left.
